Yeah, this event was still fresh in everyone's mind
I believe that dude in Ferguson(Micheal Brown right?) charged a cop and tried to disarm him, but for every one of those, there's also a George Floyd. Without cameras, would anyone know what happened outside eye witness accounts? The system calls it legit so it is legit, but it isn't. An officer literally took a man's life in broad daylight in front of the world. This situation verifies for them that ALL situations were corrupt and that the system just spins the narrative to suit the result instead of providing justice in the face of abuse of power.
I work with a different minority all the time, and they also see racism everywhere around them. I've witnessed some of it, and some missed me. There are groups of people that live their life thinking there is nowhere for them to go and any success is limited by the color of their skin. It's heartbreaking. Truly smart and gifted kids feel absolutely hopeless.
I've never felt the need to apologize for racism I took no part in or mistreatment I never inflicted. I'm not ashamed to be white. I'm saddened by racial history in the world, not just the United States, but you won't find me on my knees begging forgiveness for white privilege. I took a knee to propose once, and I get on my knees ONLY for God since. I'll take a knee WITH YOU but not to you.
As for white privilege, this is how I see it now.
I grew up poor. Single mom etc. I went through lots of hell growing up that I've had to work to overcome, and still am. One thing that stands out to me(as a teacher) is that I was never told that I can't do something. It was always about how hard I'd work for it or if I'd apply myself to reach a goal. No one ever treated me like I couldn't accomplish whatever I wanted to. These kids don't feel that way. They feel defeated already, therefore why try?
I grew up with 2 felon stepfathers. I was around a lot of cops and in and out of prisons growing up. I never felt afraid of them at all. I even had a cop pull a gun on me and I didn't feel like my life was in any danger whatsoever. I wasn't conditioned by the experience of upbringing to believe they'd try to hurt me if I acted wrongly. The kids I work with don't feel that way at all. They are untrusting of police. They feel targetted by their Native license plates and pushed aside. They identify a LOT with the black community on these issues. I can chalk it up to just upbringing and victim mentality, but it is a mixed bag. Yes, there is generational issues that are quite obvious, and I've argued that some of them hold onto the victim mentality to their own detriment, but there's this need to be seen/heard/understood. I feel helpless at times to get through to them. There are positive experiences and kids that take on the "I can do this" attitude. Those that do tend to succeed. They usually have both parents in their home and/or a great support group of family and friends that push them to succeed. Those that don't, well, just this past year I had two former students(both should still be in school) up on charges related to the murder.
I've seen the statistics that more whites are killed by police in terms of raw numbers. Those same stats will show the ratio is higher for African-Americans. Something like 90%(or close) of black people murdered in this country are murdered by black people. 70%+ are raised without their fathers involved. Like most, when both parents are involved they tend to do better, but even those that succeed carry that fear of authority and racism with them.
Do I have white privilege? On some level, I suppose I do. They will say YES YOU DO because I don't have to fear cops. I don't get followed around stores. I don't feel like the system is pushing me down all the time. They do feel that way. and for them NOT FEELING those things IS a privilege in and of itself. Fear is a massive impediment if it rules you. I think of it like my wife's crazy fear of spiders in away. I'm not afraid of them in the slightest and her fear seems so silly to me. I hate being called from another room or from doing something to kill a spider, but she's legit terrified. She's terrified of heights too. I get uneasy, but not afraid. To her, I'm the lucky one. Spiders are dangerous. Heights are dangerous. Cops are dangerous. Racism does happen.
Sorry so long. I just kinda kept going there. I hope I make sense.
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