Exactly, I think I'd be even sicker if I re-watched it because of all the missed opportunities to win the game that I don't remember right now. That game still makes my stomach turn when I think about it.
Sorry Lee. That game didn't happen. I don't acknowledge it or see it sometimes in my nightmares or obsess over what could have and should have been. I can't watch it because my fragile reality can't admit it really happened.